aRghhhghhh!

Ever feel like you have made the biggest mistake of your life? Yeah, that is my life in a nutshell. Its ridiculous. I know that the whole culture shock and adjusting takes time...but no one ever warned me about how much it really does suck.

And can I vent about the education system here? My god...its like I walked in a time machine. For being a prominent university in the city of London...I would have expected a lot more. Hardly anything is done by computers. It is all paperwork and long lines. For everyone who has been so mad about computer systems and registering online, reconsider. I know it can be stressful, but there is nothing like this. After I enrolled I had to sign up for classes. Basically, they put us in a room with all the departments and it was a free-for-all. They had hand written lists of classes that were available or not and they checked them off as they went. So chaotic, unorganized, and all together frustrating.

I hope that things start to improve. I feel sick to my stomach all the time because I am homesick. The only highlights of my day are in the evening when I get to talk to those few people from back home who are keeping me going....and bed. I am in love with sleep. I don't have to stress, I don't have to be afraid, I don't have to cry...I can just...sleep.

I miss you all so much. My heart breaks every day because you are all not here. I have strangers...and thats probably one of the loneliest places to be. I have to keep reminding myself that this is more like a vacation than living somewhere. Its temporary. I am coming home in no time so I need to enjoy this. I need to try.

Going through things like this make me think a lot about life. Its amazing how fast life goes when you are with friends, having a blast with family, or in love. And its cruel how horribly slow life becomes when that is all taken away.

Anyway, enough of my ranting. Thats just where I am at right now.
love
matt